It all started in the middle of november. Look, I'm a normal guy, and really trying to get off from this mess. I know is technically illegal and if the right person decide to sue me (or make me responsible) I'm fucked.
The first time I received something related to CP was in 2010 or 2011. Some freak posted a video in Twitter, and I did what at the time I considered "the right thing": report the post and pretend I never saw it.
Then 2017 came with all that mess involving Disney empolyees and shit, and I confess that made me curious. I mean, people losing jobs, you know: it had to be good. But life followed ok until the end of 2022. An old friend of mine, Carl (fake name, of course) sent me a link. Supposedly was a surface site, but with hosted on Deep Web or something like that. It wasn't the original stuff, but I have to say, the experience, oh man.
I'm not lying when I say that I felt myself as a kid again, browsing through the forums.
I became addicted to it. I would everyday turn my computer on and log into the site. I live with my parents, so of course I locked the room. Wouldn't be able to explain to them if I was caught accessing that kind of stuff.
Then I fucked everything up for the first time. I shared with some other friend of mine, Dale. The problem is that motherfucker snitch told my boss about it, and of course, he fired me, but did agree to not say a word "l'Il give you another shot in life, but never step a foot in this company again".
My life after that just got more and more screwed. I decided to post this here because I really need help. I can't stay away from that shit, even my freedom being at risk. I'm posting this from a Fake account, but accepting advice on my DM. I REALLY need to stop playing Club Penguin. Please, help.
So I think I'm " straight" but I've been fucking around with my gay roommate like jerking off together ecc ( not the most straight thing I agree but whatever) but one night after playing truth or dare, I was horny and I dare him to suck me off and it was very good..
So basically it just keep happening and like I don't know how to really feel cause I'm not attracted to him or guys at all but the pleasure is just insane that I can't stop going back to him and he seems fine with it so don't really know
Anyone has any advice or something?
seriously, I’d be such a catch for a hot mommy gf psychology major!
first of all, I’m smol and adorable :3 😍 like who WOULDN’T want me?? 💕 and we all know that girls who major in psych 🧠 are all mommy material 👩👧 so I could be like their pet golden retriever 🦮 and their mentally fucked up daughter!!!!!
but here’s why I specifically 👩🦳 am a great candidate for being used 👀
I have mommy AND daddy issues (and the mommy issues are worse, like wow, isn’t that so quirky and unique? 🤪) so I’m already kinda a unicorn 💅 and also I had selective mutism, social anxiety, a stutter, AND a lisp as a kid (four in one deal 😳 better than McDonald’s frrr 😤).
but guess what!!! there’s even more! as if I wasn’t amazing enough 🥰 I was also mentally, physically, and sexually abused 😢 for six years from the ages of 8 through 14 😱 by my cousin 🤯 who called herself my mommy, girlfriend, owner, big sister and best friend 🤩 isn’t that unique!!?!!
but I’m not lazy either 😤 I’ve since followed that up with self harm (both cutting AND hitting 😮💨), an eating disorder, hypersexuality, suicidal ideation 🔪, crippling flashbacks 💭, even bigger mommy issues, questioning my sexuality ❓ and feeling predatory if I find another girl attractive because I’m afraid firstly that I only like girls because I was abused by one and also secondly that I’m still defined by the baggage of my past 🙀
I’ve also been sure ✅ to be wary of telling anyone I’m close to about my past trauma or my unhealthy behaviors 🚫 because I’m afraid of being a burden or scaring them away 👻 or making it impossible for them to leave me when they inevitably get bored of me because I’m fundamentally undeserving of love 🙅🏼♀️🙅🏼♀️🙅🏼♀️
I would be such a cool case study for a psychology major 📖 and I have a lot of issues for you to write your thesis about 📑 and since you’re the more desirable one in the relationship I’ll let you use me and a treat me like trash because it’ll be an improvement over how my cousin treated me 😍😍😍
any hot mommy psychology majors who wanna use me, please hmu 📱
We were in maths class doing a very mathematical maths test. My friend got very turned on by the maths on the page so he made a penis on the calculator and started rubbing one off in class. He was wanking for about 10 minutes until we all heard a loud "UUUHUUUUH YEA" HIS CUM WAS ALL OVER THE CALCULATOR. He tried to deny it saying his dad did it but we know math makes him cum. "Calculate and ejaculate" - friend.
Found loads of porn and titty pics on my BFs computer plus loads of chats with people who are into the same thing on discord. I'm so confused on how to feel about this. Worst thing is, with one of those guys from discord, they send each other those titty videos with cum all over, blowjob videos and just different porn, and they would be like .. " Do you want to wank with me?" Also, one of those guys would send him pictures of his wife's boobs and would ask my BF to cum all over the picture.
They would also send each other dick pics of how hard their dicks are ...
Bro, is this normal or I'm i dating a weirdo!?
So I'm not homophobic but...
Just imagine being gay lol, it's so stupid. Imagine liking men so much you would want to live with one forever. Imagine seeing a man's pecs and just thinking about how comfortable they must be to rest your head on.
Imagine being able to feel safe and aroused around big muscular men. While they call you a good boy, and treat you gently.
Imagine resting in another man arms, kissing him and hugging him with all your strength. Slowly ensnaring one of his legs with yours. Feeling his warmth, his breath, his heartbeat. Imagine being happy about this, feeling blessed to have found love. Imagine this man is now sucking on your cock. You should feel disgusted or mock him, but the only thing you feel is arousal, and a bit of pride. Imagine sucking this guy's dick. you should want to stop, but no, you only want to make him feel as good as he made you feel.
Imagine this same man pinning you down on your bed, as he frots his dick against yours, letting you do nothing but uncontrollably moan from pleasure. Instead of feeling powerless you feel so horny, so happy. You think it's so fun and hot. Then he cums on you and you cum on yourself, you should feel disgusted or sad, but you feel pleased, relieved even. Imagine that after that you just go clean yourself and then directly go back to cuddling with him.
Imagine being afraid of being found out, or of having your rights removed because you dare be in love with the wrong person. Imagine feeling dread when you hear kid spout out that homosexuals should get killed for being degenerates. Imagine feeling pure terror at the thought of seeing your rights revoked. Imagine knowing that if this happens, you are dead because everything about your identity is probably stored somewhere.
Lol gays are so dumb its so funny.
