If I cause a wipe by charging a pack that everyone and their dog knows needs to be los-pulled unless you want to fight the whole room and someone says "gg noob tank" followed by "lmao git gud loser" then leaves, that doesn't feel nice.
But when you break it down, what this person is saying is that they're frustrated with me, that I'm too inexperienced to meet their standards and that they expect me to do better. And they're saying it in gamer lingo which means that despite my inadequacy for the situation at hand, we remain colleagues in this shared activity of playing WoW, they might be flipping me off while leaving me in a cloud of dust on this racetrack, but in a way they still acknowledge me as a fellow racer.
On the other hand if what they say before they leave is "I'm sorry, this isn't working out for me", that sounds like "I'm so disgusted with this situation that has me working with this... person that I don't want to even comment on it", it sounds like "Margaret, it appears that there is a homeless person sleeping in our opera booth, no Carmen for us tonight, I'm afraid". It sounds like I'm not a living human being who caused the problem, but some manifestation of the reality itself being disappointing. I'm not a noob tank, I'm a vessel of pure idiocy that unfortunately can be found in the game. I have no agency in this paradigm, there is nothing worth addressing because what's intolerable about me penetrates and permeates my very existence. It's not me you address, but someone with the power to insulate you from the fact that I exist. Like I said, it feels awful.
I will git gud, I will spend as long as it takes gitting gud and by that time I will be one of the few tanks who endured that ungrateful task and when people ask me to tank heroics for them, I will remember who simply called me a noob and who subjected me to this dehumanizing existential horror.
charge into wrong room 在錯誤的房間中衝鋒 do not line of sight 不進行視線拉怪 all monster become friend 所有怪物變成朋友 room now angry 房間現在很生氣
group fall down 團隊倒下 dog also know this pull 狗也知道這個拉怪 but you not know 但你不知道
one voice say gg noob tank 一個聲音說 gg 新手坦克 another say git gud loser 另一個說 變強吧失敗者 they leave in dust 他們在灰塵中離開 like fast horse on road 像路上的快馬
this word not gentle 這些話不溫柔 but meaning still clear 但意思仍然清楚 they say you are small 他們說你很弱小 you must become big 你必須變得強大
they angry but still same game 他們生氣但仍在同一個遊戲 you both run same race 你們在同一場比賽中奔跑 they kick you while leaving 他們離開時踢你 but still see you 他們仍然看見你
other voice more quiet 另一個聲音更安靜 say sorry not working 說抱歉這行不通 this word soft 這句話很柔軟 but heart very cold 但心非常冷
it not speak to you 它不是對你說話 it speak about world 它在談論世界 like rich person in opera 像歌劇中的富人 see strange thing in chair 在座位上看到奇怪的東西 and leave without name 然後不說名字地離開
you not tank 你不是坦克 you become problem itself 你變成問題本身 walking mistake 行走的錯誤 living disappointment 活著的失望
no agency no control 沒有能動性沒有控制 your existence leak everywhere 你的存在滲透到各處 like bad water 像壞掉的水
this feeling very heavy 這種感覺非常沉重 worse than loud insult 比大聲的辱罵更糟 silent rejection cuts deep 沉默的拒絕傷得更深
but path still forward 但道路仍然向前 you will git gud 你將會變強 take long time 需要很長時間 but time not afraid of you 但時間不害怕你
one day you become strong tank 有一天你成為強大的坦克 few survive this road 很少人能走這條路 you remember all faces 你記住所有面孔
who call you noob 誰叫你新手 and who erase your existence 誰抹去了你的存在
when they ask for help 當他們尋求幫助時 you will decide 你將決定
