look, i get this is a joke, i really do, you had a bad time, you got anxious, heart was racing, you felt like the walls were closing in, we've all been there,but you cannot just write off the entire plant based on like one bad experience with some random street weed your cousin gave you. that is literally like taking one sip of a warm, skunky room-temperature generic beer, gagging, and then declaring to the world that you hate all liquids, like dude,
you just haven't found your terpene profile yet. it is all about the science of the entourage effect,, like everyone thinks it's just about THC percentages but that is rookie shit, that is basic mainstream media propaganda, you probably smoked a high-THC sativa dominant hybrid that was harvested too early so the trichomes were clear instead of amber, now this causes major cerebral paranoia because the CBG hasn't converted properly, or it was loaded with pinene which triggers that fight-or-flight response in the amygdala if you're predisposed to OCD tendencies, you need to look at the chemistry.
you need a heavy, couch-lock indica with a high concentration of myrcene and linalool, like a real Granddaddy Purp or a heavy Blackberry Kush, something that smells like lavender and old dirt, because linalool is literally a natural anxiolytic, man, it acts on the same neurotransmitters as a pharmaceutical downer but it's from Mother Earth, it's organic, it's a plant medicine! or maybe your endocannabinoid system is just super sensitive and you need a 1:1 ratio strain like Harlequin or Cannatonic where the CBD completely blocks the psychoactive anxiety vectors of the THC molecule from overwhelming your CB1 receptors, you can't just hit a mystery vape pen at a party and say "weed isn't for me," that's crazy talk,, that's like saying you hate music because you heard a lawnmower once.
there are literally thousands of landrace strains, cultivars, phenotypes, and cross-breeds out there, you've got your limonene-heavy strains that give you a crisp, euphoric, focused daytime buzz like a cup of coffee without the jitters, you've got caryophyllene-dominant strains that soothe systemic inflammation and melt your stress into the floorboards, you just have to experiment. you need to go to a real dispensary, talk to a certified budtender who actually knows their lineage, look at the lab results, check the harvest dates, start with a microdose of a slow-cured, outdoor-grown organic indica, take literally one microscopic puff, wait twenty minutes, breathe, and tell me you don't feel like you're being hugged by a warm cloud.
i am telling you, bro, as a friend, you are missing out on the ultimate tool for human consciousness and relaxation just because you don't know the difference between a high-speed haze and a heavy afghanica, you just gotta trust the process, open your mind, buy a few different grams of different profiles, keep a terpene journal, and find your frequency, man, don't give up on the green yet, i promise you the right strain is out there waiting to heal you, you just gotta keep smoking until you find it!