Dear , i am not mad at you. I just haven't been able to realise fast enough that the things you say have been jokes. I am truly sorry and I do hope i can make this up to you. I don't hate you or anything but if you want to be mad at me then go ahead i pretty much deserve it. All I've wanted in this year is to get along with people and not upset them. I do hope I haven't ruined our friendship and that we still like each other as friends. Whatever goes on in the future fuck knows but what's is to come next I do not really care anymore, I have been a dick to you and I know it. I do hope we can talk and sort something out as right now I am certainly not up for losing more mates, I let a game get to me how retarded am I this has been bothering me all night now and I just want to point out to you that I am sorry and I am willing to make it up to you. Its up to you now whether you accept me as a friend or dont but I messed up all this time and I know that I just let it get to me and in the end i just couldn't keep it in and just go so fed up as a person can only take so much that I didn't want to unleash anger I just thought to do the wise thing. I am now leaving this choice to you whatever happens, happens I deserve it.