I want a girl just like Esdeath. Like she's so strong, cold and hot. I want to be dominated by her. I want it such that she asks me to lick her feet and then when I try to do so, she tells me that I'm a creep and kicks me in the face. In the bed, I want her to be the person to make the first move. I want her to hold me down so that I can't move and then kiss me until I suffocate. I want her to force me into doing sex like legit hold me down, tie me down a chair and then uk do the 'procedures'. I want her to kick me in the stomach until I cough up blood and then tell me that I'm a pathetic loser when I try to get up from the floor. I want her to tell me that it would have been better for me to die and then punch me in the face when I am about to go to work. I want her to look at me in such a way as if I'm a social reject, like a FUCKING disgrace and I also want her to often tell me that I'm a degen too and that I should just kill myself. I want her to abuse me to extremes not thought would be possible